May 2013
8 posts
My heart, it's an ice cube
Yesterday, I received the news that my grandma (mom’s mother) passed away, and I don’t feel a tiny bit sad. I didn’t grow up around her or know her. I remember when I went back to Vietnam in 2009, I was expecting my grandma to be warm to me, as she didn’t see me for 15+ years and I was excited to get to know my only grandparent. But it wasn’t like what I expected. I...
Sleepless Eyes
I just spent today surfing on the web for GRE fee reduction process, internship applications, and emailed my professors for reference letters. My eyes are so tired. I’m going with my friend to Lawrenville to help her look for a house to rent because she is going to medical school in fall. Yesterday, I went to Goodwill and bought a GRE practice book for $1.50.
So now my plan is this:
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There are moments in life that I feel ashamed. I do have regrets. I may live life as a good person in general, but there are small things that made me flawed. I will try to be better person.
I think I am being sued for $20,000 for a car accident that happened 3 years ago and the other person’s car suffered a small scratch. He now said that his body is hurt. My car got messed up really bad and the airbag went out in my car and I didn’t have any injury, only I have been traumatized ever since. My car’s brake didn’t work and it was raining on that day. I hit on...
I’m trying to get my life together and work hard to get into grad school and now, something else is stopping me. My mom’s mom (grandmother) has terminal illness and she is going to die soon. My mom bought a quick ticket to fly to VN, and she will leave this Wednesday. She only has one year left of work and she will qualify to get her full retirement but because she has to go to VN for...
I have to work much harder now.
Graduation was two days ago and I have been asked a lot about what I’m going to do now, am I going to find a job. There is a lot of pressure and I don’t feel proud even though I got two bachelors. I just looked up the Master of Science program and looked at the GRE dates. The test will cost around $180-5 so I need to sell some of my clothes to help me with the payment. That will...
Thrift shopping
I am planning on doing a thrift haul video after graduation. I went to Goodwill after my last final and I bought like 6 items! I found this vintage dress that is so pretty! OMG. Words cannot describe how pretty it is. Stay tune for my video to see that pretty vintage dress. It cost me $3 for that dress. I spent $70 to buy a dress from Ruche and it’s not as pretty as this one. So I’m...
Eyebrows
Growing out my eyebrows so I can reshape them. I think I look mean with these eyebrows arches. Sorry for those who are going to see my face for the next few weeks. lol
April 2013
23 posts
"We try to be real nice and friendly to people,...
Yesterday, my classmate passed out Chipotle burritos (it was limited) and I got one. My best friend was eating it but I was like, “I want to eat this but I’m gonna save it so I can share it with my roommate.” This roommate is not the Korean girl, btw. So today, I facebooked her to let her know that I would be eating lunch at 11:05pm and that she could join me to eat whatever I...
Been feeling ugly this week. I don’t know why. Last week, I was like: “wow, I don’t look that bad.” This week, “OMG, I’m look ridiculous. People need to stop looking at me.”
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I surf that Korean plastic surgery website and jeez, a lot of the afters are so pretty. I look at pictures of pretty people when I feel ugly. It makes me feel worse but better in...
One of my goals this summer: work on my English...
I know I don’t have the best grammar in the world, and I feel that if I’m going to be college graduate, my writing can’t be worse than a middle school student’s. I bought a basic English grammar book years ago with that intention to improve my skills and this summer, I’m going to work on that.
Gonna learn everything again: nouns, verbs, adjectives, adverbs, linking...
I just realize this morning that I’m graduating with honors (magna cum laude) and I thought when they said honors, it meant high school honors. lol
New revelation
I walked from the bus stop to the Geology building today and it suddenly just hit me. I’m going to get my masters in Food Science. It was depressing the other day when I looked at the pay for dietitian and it is not so good. People don’t care so much about prevention, certainly from the perspective of insurers. My dream is to counsel obese people and get them to realize their lives...
Another rant
My roommate, the gold digger one, is too sensitive. I came home from church and I smelt a chemical odor, the kind in cockroach spray. So I texted her if there was a cockroach in our room (she hates cockroach and will talk to me about it everyday like I can magically make the house cockroach-free). I’m the person who usually throw away dead cockroach after they sprayed and killed by someone...
Church
I got back from church and I felt amazing. I was so stressed out about the finals and my state of unemployment but God has some way to make me feel better. I don’t know what he did but he just did it. My ex-roommate, a childhood friend of mine from Riverdale (where I live) came to visit her friends and she was here today at church and she just gave me a feeling of being home again, back in...
I feel like being used
I cooked for my roommates a lot and I couldn’t say no to them because they would think I was selfish. Today, we went to eat out for last time and I had to pay for one of my roommates because she said she forgot her wallet. She had her purse and still remember to bring her lip balm on the way out. She had no intention of paying back and I could see it but I paid for her anyway ($14 Italian...
Plan on selling this dress
It’s size S. I only wore it once and when I brought it out to wear it for the second time, my brothers and mom told me not to wear it because I looked like an ancient grandma with it. They said a lot of harsh comments and I cried on that day. So this dress makes me sad every time I look at it.
It still looks new. It’s really pretty and the fabric is so airy and soft. When I bought...
Update on haircut and rant about shopping
I got my hair cut like two weeks ago, and my hairstylist does not speak English. lol It was just a recipe for disaster. My hair came out okay but I don’t style it with the bangs in front. I just brush it to both sides, not really middle-parting but not fully huge side parting. Somewhere in between. I would post a picture of the haircut but I rather not. I don’t want my face to be on...
Graduation, not looking forward to it
Why am I not looking forward for my graduation in two weeks? I want to stay in school forever, that’s why. The job market right now is horrible and I don’t feel accomplished even with my degrees of Bachelor of Science and Bachelor of Family and Consumer Sciences (Dietetics). I want to go graduate school but I’m not sure what I want to do with my life. I don’t have the money...
Drunken roomate
My roommate brought two of her friends (maybe 3), they asked my Korean roommate if they could try soju because they never had one before. My Korean roommate and I bought it together last time and we drank for the taste; I’ve never been drunk in my life. I knew they were going to get drunk from it because they are typically college students who drink to get drunk and not for taste. I woke up...
So I walked home from the bus stop and spotted the UPS delivery guy and his truck and I knew my shoes were in there. I walked to my house and stalked by window to wait for my delivery.
Omg, these shoes are beautiful and fit so well. I hate high heels and the blushed color shoes didn’t feel like high heels at all (so comfortable). The brown flats look so nice on my feet. I want to wear them...
Haircut soon
My Korean roommate, the one who shares the same room with me, said she would take me to the hair salon she went to, to get my hair cut. I’m planning to cut this style but I felt like I might not rock it well since I don’t have a pretty face or tall nose. I’m really tired of the long front hair I grew 2 years now and it needs to go.
See-through bangs.
I stuffed myself with a bunch of food today. So sad.
I ate a huge serving of taco salad with regular sour cream and shredded cheese. Then I ate a medium bowl of this noodle soup. I was too full but I didn’t want to waste food.
Requim (Delirium Trilogy)
I read like 4 chapters of it already and I’m highly disappointed. It sucks! What happened? The last two books were so good. This last book just makes me cringe. Now I don’t want to recommend to anyone to read this trilogy. I’m going to finish it in the summer and see if my opinion has changed.
Anyway, read On The Islands if you haven’t already. I like the book.
Graduation
I’m graduating from college in 4 weeks! Excited!
Shoes!
I just bought two pairs of shoes: one for graduation to wear with a dress and one to wear for every regular day.
They have vintage feel to them and that is why I love them at first sight! I can’t wear high heels but with that squared heels, I bet it will be comfortable.
Angry
There this guy who has being telling everybody I’m his ex-girlfriend when we have never been on a date. The only date we ever been was me almost getting raped so he and I are not friends for years now. Is that even considered a date? That was an attack. It was not a date. Now, people who he told that to think I’m a liar when I told them I never dated the guy. I bet a lot of people in...
Jeans and Treasure Hunting
I’m so obsessed with my two high-waisted skinny jeans, one in olive green and another in black. They are the only jeans I want to wear now.
Last three weeks ago, I went to Goodwill and bought 2 items for $8. I’m planning to go there again maybe next week so I will hopefully attempt to do a collective haul on it. I went to thrift stores early last year and the place near my area...
Gonna be back to the 1200 kcal diet because my face is getting bigger. -.-
March 2013
4 posts
Job update
Nope. No job. I didn’t move on to the next stage. All the daydreaming of living in Minnesota crashed and burnt.
After graduation:
1. Look for internships (1 year)
2. Take dietetics test to become a registered dietician.
3. Become a licensed dietician.
4. Find a job working in a clinical settings (most likely a hospital)
At some point, I think I have chosen for myself a life of being single forever and celibacy. Now, my only focus is myself and my career. It’s a hint of sadness but a huge opening to life of just me and the people around me.
No children.
No husband.
Watch my nieces and nephews growing up.
Watch my mother and sibling growing old.
Watch the people I-used-to-know getting married, having...
Tired
I don’t know if it’s such a good idea again to take 23 credit hours (almost double of what a full-credit student takes). Even though my mind is not giving up, my body is starting to. 3-4 hours and sometimes no sleep everyday is starting to make my body goes haywire. I dozed off in class so much and when I get home, my body just crashed. One moment I’m looking at the lecture...
Not in a good mood
I thought I did super-duper well on my Marine Biology test and I was thinking I have somewhere a 95. I checked the grade posted and I got a 75.5. Like WTF. She must have graded it wrong or she put the grade wrong because I have never been sure about a test as much as a test like this one. Some of classes I wasn’t so confident but I ended up making much higher than I expected and here I was...
February 2013
2 posts
Waiting for 3rd job interview
So I thought I did better on the phone interview than the first in person interview. If they fly me to Minnesota for the third interview, it most likely that I will get the job. I will have to wait a week to hear from them.
If I don’t get this job, I have to search for internships and afterwards, become a registered and licensed dietician. I love food so it’ll be fine but I really...
Job interview
I got a second interview with a food company and I’m really nervous and excited. First interview was in person and they said they want to have a phone interview with me for the second interview. The guy who interviewed me the first time said that if I got the second interview, I would most likely get the job!
The position is Quality Control Supervisor, which means I check the quality of...
November 2012
4 posts
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Why?
I got the news just today that my mom was hurt on Friday and no one told me about it until Saturday night. The window fell and hit her arm. My sister said my mom’s arms hurt and she will go get them x-ray on Monday. My mom is in her 60s. She is really old even though I don’t want to admit that. It’s hard to describe how cool my mom is and how caring she is. She prepared...
Determine to lose that 6lbs I gained. -.-
Weight gain and earwax
I went to the University Health Center on Friday and got my ears checked. My weight is 110 lbs now! That is the highest ever. I was 104 for like 5 years and then I gained 6 lbs so easily ever since I worked in the dining hall. I really think it’s muscle weight though because some of my jeans are loose or they still fit me and my face is slimmer. I remember when I was 106 last year, my face...
October 2012
2 posts
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Self-defense and boys
I have a lot of funny stories, but I’m so lazy to post it here. lol I know it’s been a long time since I post anything. So here’s one:
I’m taking self-defense class this semester, and it’s one of my favourite class eva! I laughed so much in that class, even my professor noticed and commented on it. So today, he assigned me to partner with the hottest guy in our...
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Stolen
Some bitch in the dining hall stole $75 from my wallet when I left it in the ladies’ locker room in my bookbag while I busted my ass working in the dinning hall to make $25.
September 2012
2 posts
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Reply 1997
Reply 1997 is like Operation Proposal. First love. I’m crying whenever Yoon Jae tried to let her know how he feels.
I know how he feels. Two people…wrong time.
August 2012
1 post
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July 2012
18 posts
My brother just gave me $100. He probably mowed the lawn of two houses to make that much in his spare time. Words cannot describe how much thankful I am. I don’t see it has 100 dollars. I see it as the effort and time he took on a hot day mowing other people’s lawns. I’m not going use that money unless I need it. Maybe for food when college returns in fall.
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"I won’t ever see them again. They are just people...
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You've heard my stories, but you don't know me.
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I feel like sometimes people just don’t get me. They assume. They assume they know me already, and it doesn’t matter if I try to explain myself. It was how things were with my ex-roommates. One of my roommates invited all the roomies for her wedding except me. I don’t really know how we got on the wrong foot. It wasn’t because of a lack of an invitation. It was how she...
